This post is my crazy ramblings it might not be a great read…..
Today was the celebration of my youngest sibling’s oldest child……5 years…..
I love all my siblings’ children!!
Today the thoughts were playing through my head….at almost 36, single and no steady relationship with any man showing intentions more than friendship….is it too late for me to still fulfil my dream and desire of my own little family?
Considering that I’m currently very happily living on my own on the farm where I work and how many years I have been living on my own, now it appears I have become so accustomed to living on my own that it would be a serious challenge for me to share a home with anyone besides my two puppies….
And having mentioned my puppies…I have already been cautioned against becoming the crazy lady who loves her dogs and where the dogs become an integral part of my life…well, at this time these two puppies are really the only constant companions I have had since taking them into my home about two years ago….they are a big part of my every day life…I’m thankful to have two lively pets who offer me some affection, joy and serious laughter!
No, I’m not a recluse! I have friends, granted most of them are married with kids, I have a couple of close friends and family who have walked beside me for several years on my journey through the hope, the joy, the doubt, the heartache and back to hopefulness again! (To each of you – nothing will ever make me forget your love, support, prayers and you being there to pick up the pieces along the way)
Some (who know most of my story) will say its more eventful and shocking than most Hollywood movies….still I believe in love and I still open my heart time and again….thanks to loving support I also retained my faith in Christ Jesus!!
I do believe that I will find my soul mate and life partner….tonight I am just pondering whether when this happens it would be a little ridiculous to still want to start a family…
I know…..God only knows….
I know….love comes when you least expect it….
I have loved deeply!
I have been hurt deeply!!
Deep wounds have been healed in me!
AND
Again I open my heart widely to be loved and love deeply….
This is not a cry out for the average “advice”….most people have no idea what it is like to have never been married, not had a child, never lived together with a significant other at my age…unless you do you cannot honestly believe you have “advice” for me….
Your love, prayers, friendship and support will always be appreciated!
When my special day eventually arrives I will share my joy with you all, albeit only on here….and I know that at that time all these questions will be answered….
For now I am enjoying the freedoms associated with the single life!!
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